The unachievable goal

The things we want, and cannot have, are always far, far, more alluring than the things that fall into out lap, or even those which make us stretch a little in order to reach them.
This, my friends (Romans, countrymen) is le fact.
I am not altogether sure why. Though I am trying to work it out. (Oh, and if anyone knows for certain, let me know; I might sleep better then.)
Don’t misunderstand me here; I’m grateful for the things that I’ve been given, or the things that were easy to get. I don’t mean to devalue them, but there is something inside that insists that they are simply not enough. There is something that tells me I must stride out in search of the seemingly unachievable goal and strike the ball into the back of the net in the manner of Pele or Cryuff.
Of course, the thing about the unachievable goal is that it is, well, unachievable. And I think this has something to do with the attraction.
Wise men have, no doubt, said as much before. And with greater eloquence, I assume. But what the hell? I’m saying it too.
There are many, many things I cannot do. Equally as many fall into the ’cannot have’ category (Way too many to list. Besides, I am not in list making mode; my mind lacks the necessary organisational skills for such action.) and it is these things which I want… though if someone were to give me them, say I’d earned them, present them to me with all the pomp and splendour I feel they would merit … well, I’d probably just walk away.
Someone, I forget who (because I did not pay attention in my A level European History lessons, as was an official policy of mine at the time) said that the problem with Napoleon was that, when he had achieved power, he did not know what to do with it. I suspect I am much the same (apart from the war-mongering and the silly hat and being vertically challenged).
There was/is also a Sinead O’ Connor song; ‘I do not want what I have not got’ or something of that ilk. I’m ashamed to say, it’s the opposite way with me. Clearly, I have much to learn from my Celtic roots.
But, when it comes down to it, I’m stuck because, have it or can’t have it, I’m not altogether sure what I do want.